#at least this episode is making me feel Christmas serotonin

[milbroom]

she is me, i am her.

drowning in mid terms. drowning in assignments. drowning in over twenty-thousand unfinished words for my next fan-fiction chapter. haven’t updated anything in months? haven’t replied to anyone in days?

someone please cast me as fairy godmother already. please.

✨⭐️🌟💫✨⭐️🌟💫

[zackmartin]

for Maddie and London who's more physically affectionate, whats one way their personalities compliment each other, and what would their perfect date be like :)

Okay, first, thank you so much for sending me this because I’m obsessed with them and this gave me so much serotonin 🥺💕 but also, I’m sorry it took me literally two days to answer it lasdjfk I have a really bad habit of taking a entire week or more to answer asks from ask games cause I get lazy really fast 😬

OTP Questions

who's more physically affectionate?

Okay. I didn’t intend for this to be the tiniest bit angsty, but. I feel like, at least at first, probably London? Like, I don’t want to make it sound like London doesn’t have anyone (Especially since they made it pretty clear in SLOZAC that the Boston employees treated her like a member of their own, and Moseby is literally her Dad, I’ll die on that hill, and I would never disrespect everything he did for her by saying she has no one) But just. She lived in that Suite by herself, we never even see her actual father until one of the very last episodes of On Deck (and you cannot tell me he was giving her hugs in those few times a year he’d bother to visit her like. In SLOZAC he wouldn’t even let his security guards part so she could see his face), and we know her Mom is gone, and outside of the maternal grandmother we met in the Thailand episode of On Deck, they never really told us that she had any other relatives to speak of (or, ones that cared anyway). So, my really long-winded point is that I can imagine that London might be a little touch-starved?

So I could see London being the more physically affectionate one in the beginning, just to make up for the lack of affection she received growing up, but then when they get older and they’ve been together for years and it’s clear to London that they’re pretty much in this for the long haul and that affection she’s been receiving isn’t suddenly going to disappear one day,,, I can see it sort of balancing out. And then it just sort of becomes whatever mood they’re in that day.

whats one way their personalities compliment each other?

I feel like the show really did a great job of showing us how they complimented each other, which, I think, is why a lot of us now are like “they’re soulmates” (or maybe when it was airing if you were enlightened, unlike me laksjdf) Like, idk, they really just. They were so good at bringing out the best in each other (like the Christmas episode, which drives me insane in the best way, when London literally handmakes a sweater for Maddie. Like, you cannot tell me that London would go to THAT amount of effort for anyone else, except Moseby. And I know Maddie was a little selfish about it at first but she finally realized how hard London worked on it and she learned to treasure it) But they were also really great about being there for each other when they weren’t at their best (like, when Maddie helped London realize that she had a tendency to spend exuberant amounts of money when she was upset, and helping her realize that she just needed to find alternative outlets for her frustrations) (OR when Maddie was literally the only person that stood by London when she lost her fortune).

I feel like I’m not really answering the question alsdjkf but honestly I just don’t know how because I feel like the show itself already did a perfect job of showing us how they complimented each other in ways that made them perfect for each other 🤷🏻‍♀️

what would their perfect date be like?

I feel like they probably have wildly different definitions of the perfect date alsdkjf At least when they go out, so it ends up having to be a compromise a lot of the times. Like Maddie saying “I’ll do this red carpet with you, but that means you have to see this arthouse movie with me next week” “Is this one I have to read?” “Unless you know French, yes” (although, Iike to HC that London knows some French, considering she jets off to Paris all the time)(also like to HC that Zack forced her into teaching him a few key phrases he can use to flirt with girls)(really found a way to shoehorn him into a discussion that has fuck all to do with him, huh aslkdjf good for me, honestly)

But, we’re talking about perfect dates here.

Honestly, a perfect date for them (at least in my head) is a night in, where they order room service or take-out, and they’re in comfy (but cute; it’s still a date after all alskdj) pajamas and Maddie is showing London those bad teen movies from the late 90s/early 2000s that would’ve been a staple of her childhood, and definitely ones that would’ve been shown at any sleepovers Maddie would’ve attended in her childhood. Like, that just seems perfect to me because they're alone so London doesn't have to put on the " heiress London Tipton" facade and can just be herself, and she's getting to experience something she always wanted to but never got a chance to growing up. And on Maddie's side,,, sure, she's in a fancier suite than she'd probably ever experience in her lifetime had she not known the literal heir to the Tipton fortune, but she's been it so many times now she's learned to be comfortable in it, and this isn't a situation where she has to be wear a fancy dress she can't afford, or be around a bunch of rich snobs that drive her insane alsdjf And she also gets to be with the London she really cares for (as in, not It Girl London Tipton, or heiress London but just. London)

[sleepykaru]

I’ve been wanting to write this for a little while, but I suppose I can be shy even in a fairly anonymous setting. I don’t like to speak much of my personal life, but on the chance my experience can help anyone out, I do want to speak briefly about my experience with depression and my journey to, and during therapy for anyone who might have similar experiences, or is considering or would benefit from speaking with a therapist.

Firstly, I was not raised in a household that promoted any sort of mental health awareness. At least, the way that it was spoken in front of me as a child never felt, uh... aware of it in any kind or understanding manner. So, I was depressed for a long time while touting that there was certainly no way I could be, because being depressed was just being sad and everyone gets sad sometimes, or that I wasn’t miserable enough to ‘hit the criteria’, etc.

I experienced my worst spiral from ages 17-21, in which one of my closest friends encouraged me to seek professional help. It was something she had suggested for a while, until it became something of both a demand and a plea. 

By that point, I had accepted that I was depressed, but I wanted to be the person to fix myself. Some sort of haphazardly wielded pride, I suppose? But the thought is very silly in retrospect, because if I had a broken arm, I would definitely want to seek a doctor? But solving it by myself was something I was determined to do for much too long, with little to no results.

Finally, I did make the leap and found an art-centric psychotherapist that was on my commute, and had her payment plan on a sliding scale which meant that I could afford her, at least for a little while. (There was also some confusion with my insurance company which sucked, but I won’t get into that.)

The placement was great because it meant that I could not feasibly convince myself that it was out of my way or anything, since it was right on my way home from work.

I had my first session with her, and I came home and literally collapsed on the floor and cried my eyes out. Therapy had been touted as a fix-all for me, or at least that was what it had become in my head, and my first session had been partially paperwork and my payment plan, and a sort of introduction. I felt like I had been robbed. I was already so skeptical of therapy, and I felt like I had just thrown a chunk of money into a fire. But I decided to go to her for at least a month.

So maybe it was me, or she should have handled our first session differently, but I did wind up staying with this therapist for maybe a year or a little over (I only stopped going during quarantine, even with plans to leave beforehand, but that was entirely job/finances related) and I guess the big reason that I wanted to, despite my reservations, talk about this is publicly is because going to therapy can be scary, and it’s not talked about enough that I had no idea what to expect going in there, other than it was something that people really wanted me to do, and so it must be what finally fixes me.

But building a relationship with a therapist takes time, because in your first session, they really are a stranger. They don’t know you, and they can’t learn everything about you in 40 min, an hour, however long your first meeting is. It will take time and several sessions, over several topics, over several different moods that you walk in with to better understand you.

Whatever unrealistic expectations I had, there was no way I was going to leave her room that first session and feel infinitely better right from the start. You might need to meet and e-mail a few therapists first, too, because sometimes you just won’t click with the first one, or second one, or third one, and it has nothing to do with you, it just happens. Just like with meeting and gauging your connection or easiness with literally anyone else.

And I only started to really improve when I not only decided that I wanted to, and that I was sick and tired of being tired and miserable, but that I took steps (therapy included) to actually getting there. I started to take serotonin synthesizers (gifted to me on Christmas, no joke) despite the plethora of problems I also had with that (which were also silly), I took a journal and started to write down thoughts there when I was having anything akin to an episode which was a great way of expelling it in that moment, and just... it’s a difficult road, but you will get better. (Everyone’s experiences are different and it may take extra steps sometimes, but I do think happiness is achievable.)

The way that I feel now, I would have not once in my life suspected I would ever achieve, and it’s the new normal for me. And it’s not overwhelmingly happy or optimistic, it’s... fine. But it’s good.

I’m no authority on this matter in the end, though, so there’s not much I want to discuss/can give advice about. But hopefully this helps, if there’s anyone out there who needed to read this. This is very uncomfortable for me to post, but I’ve felt in my chest for a while that it may be good to get it out there.

(Sometimes I’m not so graceful with my thoughts/words, so here’s to hoping my intentions here are even vaguely decipherable. Not trying to be preachy or anything, either.)

[mimiri22-6]

SANDERS ASIDES #2 GAY OR NAY!!! I’M FINALY DOING ONE OF THESE FOR TOMATHY!

(This is my third time watching the video, it’s really good)

These old man jokes are actually really funny to me for some reason

...Why is Virgl just me? Doing one thing and them immediately regretting doing that thing

‘Liar. Liar. Liar! Liar!! LIAR!!” Guys, your gonna start summoning Janus(not that I would m-)

I’m not even going to try and hear wtf Roman just said. like, I understand Shakespeare, but do not ask me what words mean what. I get the gist of what’s being said most of the time, but it’s a language I never want to look at again. ‘Cutie at 12 o’clock’ yeah, I understood that, but don’t ever freaking do that again, Roman

‘We don’t know if he’s not gay’ he’s got a point

‘He’s got some stickers on his laptop’...i really want to get stickers on my laptop, but the one I have now is pretty shitty and I want the stickers to have a nice home.

‘That’s a classic introverted method of talking about yourself without having to do anything too..extreme. Like talking.’ I do hate talking

When Roman starting clapping his hands in excitement? Pure serotonin. that was adorable and Roman needs to be happier more often

‘You’re a creep, you’re a weirdo-’ I see what you did there Thomas crew

‘I don’t want me to be doing this either’ Me talking to my ADD+Procrastination+Perfectionism=What’s homework? Never heard of her *screeches in constant panic cosplaying a pterodactyl*

That little ‘ready to stare’ pose when Virgil said ‘Go’ like a dog owner playing fetch was greatly adorable

Let’s see, we got Yu-Gi-Oh, Basketball....excuse me, Mr Nico Flores? Wtf is that third thing supposed to be???

‘Boiled Mayo Carrots’!?!?!??!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?!?!??!!!!? KEEP THAT ABOMINATION IN FLORIDA!!!!! FUCK NO!!! NO! THAT BETTER NOT BE A FUCKING THING OR I WILL KILL EVERYONE AND THEN MYSELF!

‘Go home and regret everything’ I agree. I wouldn’t even have the courage to do the kind of snooping Thomas is doing, I  would have already left and said goodbye to a chance of, at least, a new friend

There’s a lot of talk of names in this episode...all directed toward Roman...

I am once again Virg! What Are ‘Gay Eyes’ !? Gebus. I can hardly tell what I’m feeling most of the time. and I avoid eye contact at all costs. I will never use that, nor ever notice anyone using those in my vicinity. I am a very dense person.

That one shot, where Nico turns around and you can see Thomas and CO. in the back? Most likely my favorite shot.

‘Ah nanana, I wasn’t testing you. I was just panicking.’...I’m starting to understand why people relate to Virgil so much...

‘You’re making a mistake’ ‘If I am I’ll add it to the list!’ Oh, Roman, you need to talk about something?

No. Don’t crawl into the trashcan...no.

‘That’s like cyber stalking, but real life’ ‘So stalking’ ‘...OH, YOU’RE RIGHT!’ Oh my god, they’re all idiots. Where’s Logan when you need him.

OH NO THERE’S GOING TO BE SOMEONE IN THE STALL!!! FUCK, SECOND HAND EMBARASMENT SUCKS SO FREAKING MUCH!!!

Back to the discussion of Thomas’ wants. And the way Roman’s and Virgil’s expressions change with certain sentences is slightly worrying

...Am I the only one that doesn’t understand looking at some stranger and immediately imagining marrying them? Is that just me? Cause I can’t imagine looking at someone I don’t know and just going ‘I’d marry that and live the rest of my life with that’ I just-it really doesn’t make any sense to me.

GOD FUCKING DAMN IT, THERE’S A PERSON IN THE STALL, I HATE THAT TROPE SO FUCKING MUCH! FUCK! NO! RUN FROM THIS SITUATION, THOMAS! I WOULD!

‘The lies.’ uh oh ‘You can’t have true love if the relationship isn’t built on truth’ tru ‘Will deceit continue to be the answer to all your problems?’ Well...you don’t have to call me out like this...

‘He’s better off without me’...I use that line a lot...definitely too much actually...

IS HIM! SAY SOMETHING, THOMAS!

‘He fears things, too?!’ Yes, Virgil, like most people...also same, I doubt other people feel fear, too.

‘What’d he say?!’ Once again, me in this situation

‘Yeah, super nosey, man. hahaha. *deep(very either dreamy or forgot to breath) sigh*’ I don’t know why, but that was an amazingly delivered line. Thomas is such a great actor in all mediums, and do not even try to say he’s not

‘There he goes’ NO YOU CAN STILL AT LEAST TRY TO SAY SOMETHING! C’MON BOIS, YOU CAN PULL IT OFF!

Gosh, Roman looks So Sad. AH! NO!

C’mon, Virg. Fight or flight. Fight.

ONCE AGAIN! THAT THING ABOUT THOMAS’ ACTING!? THAT PART WITH VIRGIL! PLUS THE AMAZING DRAWINGS!? PAERFECTLY PUT TOGETHER TO MAKE SOMETHING PERFECT!

(Also, once again, I would not have the courage to even approach anyone like this. Ah, to live without being a wuss about everything...)

Thomas is actually how i act when I’m coming clean about something. Just rambling on my explanation, probably saying a bit too much to get the point across. Well, like Thomas, but add several more sentences and a fast dwindling voice that abruptly shuts down

‘...or an aspect of their life feeling like a trash bin and the waste keeps piling and piling up until it inevitably spills out into the rest of their life’ O-oh ok, didn’t how much of this asides would be a callout post to me specifically, but ok.

‘Shut up!’ ‘Shut up.’ ‘Shut UP!’ They’re adorable

This asides said Prinxiety rights

It was nice to see at least someone pop up this episode

Janus?! Oh ok-JANUS!?!

Eh! AH! OH NO! AAAAAHHH!!!! I NEED IT! BUT I DON’T HAVE ANY KIND OF MONEY NOW WILL I ANYTIME SOON! I HAVE LIKE 100$ TO MY NAME AND THAT’S CHRISTMAS GIFTS! IF I HAD A WAY I WOULD BUT I CAN’T AND I AM BUT A CHILD IN AN ADULT WORLD, I WOULD GIVE ALL I CAN IF I COULD, BUT ALAS I CAN NOT! NNNOOOOOOO!!!!!!!(but also thank god I don’t because my wallet would be barren between Vivziepop, Unus Annus, Jacksepticeye, Cloak, Top of the Morning Coffee, and Thomas...I would be living in a box with only merch to my name...)

After Credits Scene!~~~

That edit, with all of them walking into the house! I can only dream of doing that! like, I have an idea of how that was made, but it will always be spectacular to me

PAUSE! OH MY FUCKING GOD! IS THAT SPARKALING PURPLE EYESHADOW! VIRG IS LOOKING FABULOUS! HOLY SHIT I LOVE THAT ON HIM!(also wasn’t there a tumblr post flying around with that idea as a joke? the one where Virg is doing his black eyeshadow saying something about hiding his eyebags and Roman’s like ‘ I have a better way of doing that’ and then it’s just Virgil with glitter under his eyes. That wasn’t my imagination, because I’m too smooth brain for that)

‘I’m gonna need you to, like, walk around the entire expanse of the room, in like a frenzy, thank you so much, yes, that helps somehow’ It is weird how that helps alot

‘Huh, delete it.’ Wow! I only just realized that Virgil’s eyeshadow is black there. it went by so fast the last times that I didn’t notice.

‘I know right!’ Oh My God He’s So Cute Like This! He’s So HAPPY! PATTON, YOU NEED TO SEE YOUR SON LIKE THIS, IT’S FULFILLING!

‘I found a Michelin star restaurant, it’s in France’ ‘I’m listening’ just two idiots working together in the name of love(I accidently just referenced a song...I’m proud of myself for that)

‘I’m gonna need you to shake your hands, alright, you gotta do something with them, they’re just hanging there’  A whole mood.

‘Are we ready for this?’ Oh No! Virgil’s sad again! Stop worrying him! let him live his life!

‘AH, DEMON!’ also a mood

‘Don’t tell me to relax!’ he is literally Anxiety, c’mon Ro.

Anyway, loved that. Now I will either rewatch Bee and Puppycat, again, all the way through, so I can finally update my season 2 review, yes there is a season 2 and it is AMAZING, or i will end up rewatching the previous TSS episode, again, idk how many times I’ve done that...I will most likely do the latter because I can never get enough comfort Thomas content. And Then maybe watch B and Puppycat again, because I really need to.